Unbearable Suffering: A Personal Struggle With the Mysterious Suffering of Cluster Headache Syndrome
It began on a dreary weekday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a teacher, trying to settle a new class, when a sudden pain sprang behind my right eye. This was followed by quick stabs, reminiscent of lightning bolts. As the school day came and went, the pain eased and then came back with increased intensity. Four times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and ran to the staff bathroom to douse my face with cool water. I tried paracetamol, but the agony remained unbearable.
The attacks returned repeatedly that fall, and once more in spring, soon establishing an yearly cycle. September and October were the worst, then the late winter. I could predict the routine: a warning sensation in the morning, early pangs on the commute, full-on pain in class by mid-morning. In 2019, a doctor eventually sent me to a neurologist and I was given a diagnosis with cluster headache disorder.
Cluster headaches typically begin with intense discomfort behind one eye that persists for several hours.
About 1 in 1000 people are affected by the disorder, and men are more frequently affected. Attacks usually start with sudden, excruciating agony focused on one eye that peaks within a short time and lasts for as long as three hours. Attacks occur in cycles, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or face perspiration. There exists the episodic form, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have chronic attacks, characterized by the lack of long pain-free periods.
What connects patients is the intensity. One study scored the sensation at 9.7 10, higher than bone fractures or pancreatitis. A separate discovered a significant percentage of cluster patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the number dropped to 4% when they were pain-free.
One patient, 74, a chronic sufferer from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was two. “I would hurl myself on the ground and hit my head. That was put down to being a difficult child,” she says. Her symptoms deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, like several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.
Her relatives often interpreted her episodes as intoxicated episodes. Understanding finally came from her parent and then from her partner, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an understanding person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after moving, but often hid her condition. She was fired from one job, in part due to absences during episodes. Her breakthrough diagnosis came in the early 2000s at a specialist hospital.
Still, the failure to plan life around unpredictable pain took its toll. She especially hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be cared for by her family during the incapacitation caused by the worst episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an attack inside a portable toilet.
Headaches have been described across history. “The first description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in 4000BC,” write authors in a publication on the subject. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his sufferers' heads.
Ancient healing texts suggest unusual remedies for what modern observers would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, migraine was identified as a separate condition, with treatments including bloodletting to other, more folk cures.
It was a European doctor who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster headache. In his writings, he describes a patient “suffering with a very intense headache happening and vanishing each day at fixed hours”.
The disorder were only officially classified by international headache societies in the late 1980s. From the 1960s to the late 1990s, they were thought to be caused by a problem with a major blood vessel which supplies blood to the brain. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.
In the late 1990s, scientists published the findings of a study for which they had induced attacks in patients and monitored the episodes in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the a brain region, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in discomfort, and a deactivation when they recovered.
In spite of such progress, diagnosis remains slow. Jamie Charteris's symptoms started in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my left eye”. Doctors thought he had sinus problems; he underwent four surgeries before finally being correctly identified in recently, after a physician looked up his symptoms.
Neurologists say wait times in diagnosis and treatment happen because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're tired and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as migraine, before confirming the disorder. A thorough history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how much time? What season? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain features such as tearing, sagging eyelids and nasal congestion help verify cluster headaches. Once identified, patients may be sent to dedicated centers. But a lot of first arrive to emergency rooms or are given inadequate therapies.
Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has suffered from the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an episode since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more awareness. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who replied. I remember calling a helpline during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer talked me through oxygen treatment and medication until the attack passed.
National guidelines on management recommend that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug delivered by nasal spray. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic options include a blood pressure medication, which reportedly helps manage the attacks of some people.
But consultant neurologists believe the guidance need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help GPs avoid misprescribing. For episodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the bout determines the approach.” Short cycles with infrequent attacks are managed with acute therapy alone. Longer or more intense periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes combined with steroids. A significant number of patients also receive a greater occipital nerve block during a bout – an injection into the side of the skull where the discomfort is that decreases nerve activity.
The official guidelines need updating to reflect a